Author Archives: AverageOrdinaryMom

No one tells you about the fright you feel when your baby is getting older and you love them an ungodly amount. Terrified of them ever being disappointed in you, or feel the way you felt towards your abusive mother. No one tells you that you will catch yourself slapping yourself on the hand every time you even raise your voice around them, even if it’s not directed towards them. No one tells you about the guilt you feel bringing your child into this world without knowing the kind of mother you will be to them. No one tells you about the countless hours you will spend crying because you wish you had a good parent to raise you and teach you how to raise your baby. No one told you about the endless cycle of what ifs and but statements you will tell yourself repeatedly.

You have to remind yourself that you are human, you are fragile. You were just a baby who didn’t deserve the childhood you were handed. You’re not like them. You are you and you will do amazing things as a mother. Your baby will love you no matter what. You are an amazing mother, remind yourself that when you are feeling this distraught. You are enough.

What are ways you’ve stayed busy while home with baby?

I’ve found it very difficult to figure out things to do with my 11 month old. With all the researching in my area the only thing to do near me is go on walks. Sometimes I wish he was old enough to walk and play like at a park. (I know I will probably regret that when he is doing that, lol)

So far I have been to the recreation center and taken him swimming, I have taken him to the local farmers market on Thursday’s, I have walked with him around parks. What other things are there to do with an 11 month old? I find myself bored at home most of the time.

I find it hard to write often because I don’t know how to put my thoughts into words. I feel myself reflecting on the past, and how I can overcome the regret and heartache. To be a better mom/wife I have to let go of the past. Well, not necessarily let go, just learn how to forgive those who have hurt me, and also forgive myself for the choices I made. I often find myself lodging the hard feelings down and never reflecting on them, this creating memory loss for me. I have come up with ways to help myself, and whoever it speaks to as well.

You are not a burden to those who care about you, and yes people care about you. Ask for the help if you need it. Talk to someone if you need it.

Be more attentive to yourself, I know your kid/s matter so much to you. You can only be a good parent if you are good to yourself first.

You are beautiful. Even after having a baby, even with the stretch marks/lose skin. You are so much more than a body.

Get ready if you want to, I know it’s a lot of effort but it will make you feel better. It’s okay to feel sexy.

Buy things for yourself, I know it may be difficult sometimes but you should cater to yourself as well.

Take care of yourself, mom. ❤️