No one tells you about the fright you feel when your baby is getting older and you love them an ungodly amount. Terrified of them ever being disappointed in you, or feel the way you felt towards your abusive mother. No one tells you that you will catch yourself slapping yourself on the hand every time you even raise your voice around them, even if it’s not directed towards them. No one tells you about the guilt you feel bringing your child into this world without knowing the kind of mother you will be to them. No one tells you about the countless hours you will spend crying because you wish you had a good parent to raise you and teach you how to raise your baby. No one told you about the endless cycle of what ifs and but statements you will tell yourself repeatedly.
You have to remind yourself that you are human, you are fragile. You were just a baby who didn’t deserve the childhood you were handed. You’re not like them. You are you and you will do amazing things as a mother. Your baby will love you no matter what. You are an amazing mother, remind yourself that when you are feeling this distraught. You are enough.
Average Ordinary Mom 